"Who am I now?"
This post is for all the parents and students who are in the midst and mire of making college decisions. We are with you my friends. Our second daughter is nearing the end of her GAP year (a year off between HS and college for travel and work, a not uncommon custom we fell in love with in Australia). We are now visiting schools and trying to “help” her make this decision. Since there is entirely too much pressure on “what comes next” after high school I am of course giving the appearance of being a nervous wreck. Thankfully, my process of connecting to Holy Spirit and extending love to my thoughts is for these occasions pretty much the ONLY thing to do. In my late night plea before visiting Columbia College of Art in Chicago to “please tell me what college is even FOR” my Holy Friend answered the fears and concerns of my heart:
“I extend awe to this thought.”
“Precious One,
Awe is the moment you take in pure quietness.
The step into the emptiness of uncertainty–certain of Love’s glorious presence. You have long resisted education as it seems to indicate you don’t know something. Education is a process of revealing. A process of remembering the joy which is already here. College is not an answer to “What do I do now?”
College is another step in learning in remembering “Who am I now?”
Fear not this step. Trust your daughter and her heart. Let her ask questions and be aware of what she is thinking herself. She is opening to her own heart. Fear not her heart.
Fear not her knowing.
Fear not her not knowing.
Let you guidance GUIDE you in all things.
I love you.
Did you know that?
I love you with the hearttruth of the infinite power of love.
Amen & Selah”
Salvation Chronicles 
As always, eloquent. Not having had the opportunity to go to college after High School, I always felt I missed out. I missed out on finding out the next step of who I am. I still got there, but not in the same way. I’m glad Kat had an opportunity to go, get her associates, and then take time off to figure out why she was there. The hardest transition as a parent is from one of ‘telling’ to one of ‘guiding’. Selah indeed.
I love that you wrote “I still got there, but not in the same way.” I guess the truth is we always get there, and end up finding out about our very cool selves. Even going through college can’t mess that up:) Great to hear from you Stacey!