“Preview Call” (part 1)

Forgiveness

is

the

preview

to

Love

“Ask and Answer”

I knew salvation

was the answer

when I was only four.

But I did not know

what salvation was.

Salvation is the question

we ask ourselves

in the dead of night,

the question that

begs the answer

that frees us unstantly.

Do you still love me?

There never was a time

now, before and ever after

that I could not love you.

I am saved simply

by the ask and answer

that salvation

is.

“I Was Wrong”

I left myself behind

a veil of lies, a sort of

secret I told myself

to help with the game.

Without the veil

there is no behind

or in front;

only a presence

of mind

like no other.

Loving me with open arms

whispering sweets and ideas

into my heart

to give me something

to build of my own.

Life can do anything

I want, except die,

and for the first time

I am happy

I was wrong.

“Christ is Coming Out of the Closet”

I must share a few words about an incredible experience I had over the weekend at an intensive called “Listen from Within”.  Firstly, it was wonderful to be, again, amongst my friends of the heart in a rich atmosphere of sharing and safety.  We have been studying the “Way of Mastery” together for over a year and I had taken a break to spend time in quiet truly listening for this Voice for Love.  It turns out I can attune most clearly while writing.  Speaking the Voice for Love is an experience that happens as a serendipity but until now did not seem something I could do “at a moment’s notice”.  Through a brilliantly simple exercise I was able to access and share this beautiful Voice for Love from within my self in real-time in the loving space we all created together for this purpose.

I will describe the excercise at a later date since another intensive is running this weekend and I don’t want to intrude on their own experiences by my own descriptions.  Today I will just share a few quotes from members of the group and then share some words of Holy Spirit given to me at the lunch break.

“I didn’t know neutrality was an experience.”–Annette

“It is so f***ing sweet!  I am the experiencer…just lovin’ on everybody” –Carol

“Neutrality is the best gnache you can taste.”–Eva

“Christ is coming out of the closet!  Thank God!”–Jan

I asked Holy Spirit at lunch about a concern over a sick family member:

“I am love loving all things. 

You need do nothing right now.

Your child is well taken care of.

Guilt will not serve her or you.

All is well.

Allow Love to do its work.

Do not feel the need to interfere.

You may step back and be joyful in the process of awakening.

Even your cells are awakening.

You need not suffer.

Your child is not suffering, though she is sick.

Her heart is open.”

“I am……finished”

I Am

Alpha Omega

Beginning End

Good Bad

Heaven Hell

One Zero

Subject Verb

I  Am

“Salvation”

Salvation is not a moment

that covers a lifetime.

Salvation is a lifetime

that covers a moment.

The  moment I forgot

to laugh

in Eternity

now.

“God’s Plan”

Your love betrayed us both;

you for falling for it

and me for not falling.

I wince, with near pleasure

at the hurt.  Your absence has left me

bruised yet happy

for you.  You go first

and tell me the water’s fine

and I will dive in after.

Today I found myself

in the deep end of a wavepool

struggling at the surface

hoping for safety in Truth.

To my surprize I found

the facts did not support

my claim for air.  Weak

with fear of judgment

I let go and drifted.

Until truth surrounded

me with the living water.

I know only this:

I know nothing but

God’s plan for salvation will work.

Won’t it?

“Fishnet Stalkings”

Would my writing

remain the same

if it took the leap of faith

from page to blog?

Jesus said he would

make us fishers of men

Isn’t the Web

the world’s biggest net?

Who’s laughing now?

“Answering a Call for Love”

Me (after a wild & crazy day):  What is excitement?:

Holy Spirit:  Excitement is me bringing you up to speed.  You are already “up to speed” but don’t yet remember it fully.  It is not to be feared or worshipped.  It just is.

Me:  My real thoughts are in my mind?  Well, I would really like to find them.  I feel so distant from them.

Holy Spirit:  Distance is to give you a glimpse of how much I love you–high, deep, wide, tiny, close, galaxy & cell.  There are not any two points on the edges of the universe that are not connected by my love.  If you think the world is cool, can you imagine the unseen world?  And then imagine the full knowledge of the Love that is all there is and you my dear are part of that glorious whole–not separate or alone or striving–close your eyes and feel it!

Me:  mmmmmmmm

Holy Spirit:  Just because a thought calls, doesn’t mean you have to answer–other than with love and joy.  Great each call for love as an opportunity to love like me.  All calls are answered in truth, not necessarily on the level of form.  But al calls for love cannot be NOT answered.

“The Fall”

Creativity creates something out of nothing.

Destructivity creates nothing out of something.

It is the opposite of creativity.

What goes up must come down;

everything has a season;

even the leaves must fall.

We have trained ourselves to believe

that there is an inevitable downside to creation.

Perhaps creation in this realm

is all we know; the yin and yang of life.

But deep inside me is an assurance

that the eternity of truth

knows only the wholeness of creation.

The secret to understanding is that

the extension of love creates nothing,

yet illuminates all that already is.